있겠죠 이별해본적
사랑했던 만큼 미워해본적
읽지도 못한 편지 찢어본적
잊지도 못할 전화번호 지워본적
기념일을 혼자 챙겨본적
사진들을 다 불태워본적
이 세상의 모든 이별 노래가 당신 얘길거라 생각해본적
- Love Love Love by Epik High
It's weird how this song gets to me every single time.
It is the one song that has been on repeat countless times on my ipod; a song I keep coming back to no matter how much time passes.
To me, it really speaks of the truth; it exposes how much damage love does, yet we all can't help but coming back to it.
I can't speak for other people, but the song really speaks truth in my life.
Especially with the recent events in my life, I am coming back to this song with a new light shining on the back of my head (I am not quite sure what this means either). I have had trust issues since...I am not sure when, but I know for sure that this issue of mine became full-on after that one particular incident. The damage has been done, and for the most part, all traces of it has disappeared from my life - except I still have some major trust issues.
I thought I got better, but tonight once again proved that this was not the case.
What is with this uneasy feeling...? Do I "let" him back in my life? At what risk? Is it even my choice to let people in and out of my life? Am I being selfish?
Oh dear God. Is this a repeat of 2006?
